checking this site was a terrible fucking idea lmao. anyways

so uh! long time no post, eh?

it's been over a month since i last posted

but hey! i'm still alive and well

...somehow.

aaanywho, we finally got the money to get food for a few weeks!

that's good i guess

well, time to dip for another month. cya!

because she is

ok, anyways hi im still alive, just been feelin awful

cried twice today and had a big headache

but im good now

jhfbfhfj

hi, everyone! long time no post, eh?

well, today's post is about... my super unhealthy obsession with cdmilky.

i asked a good friend of mine [who wishes to remain anonymous] to contact marie, telling her that i really want to talk to her again. i yearned for a conversation with her for just one more time.

but she... didn't want to spare me. it wasn't the outcome i expected, really, but she had very good points.

i treated her like a tool. like a toy.

every single time she would vent or share her drawings with me, i'd become very upset, but masked it by pretending to be fascinated, which i then grew to become.

but my fascination went way too far.

i'm now trying to combat this obsession by removing things related to her, which might help me forget.

now is not the time for her to spare me, and that is fine.

marie, if you see this by any chance, please stay safe out there.

wooooooooo situation over!!!!

if u are curious abt what happened these past few months no u arent

this is day 4 of waiting for forgiveness, im letting her take her time

she said "Thank you!" after i showed a sign of maturity

out of pure respect, i am going to let her take her time

one day we are going to talk again

and im excited for that day

kinda forgot abt this site lol

just checking in after idk how long, i dont really enjoy life and i barely do anything, like draw, talk to people etc.

really hate it here tbh

also, the name miraide has been stuck in my head for a while

help

hi guess who's been contemplating suicide

thats right, me!

my mental health is declining and i am getting weaker and weaker as time passes, and it really fucking sucks man

sometimes i wish all my pain would end man

i hate it here anyone got a knife or smth

also yes, i like madness now

aint that neat

bro i am NOT feelin good at ALL

life p much sucks and i lost all motivation to,,,,,,, do anything really

i lost motivation to draw, to play games, to idk, get out of bed

my mental health is declining a lot and my parents still wont send me to a professional

anyways, this is the end of my first actual blog post.

stay safe, everyone.

~~nekhbet

hi i refuse to post my stuff here due to the ungodly amount of r34 mines on this site

not like yall would care lmao anyways

*slides up sewer* farewell